Grieving; Eva Luna Poetry Collections

(Poems from the book "Grieving")
All Rights Reserve. 2009 Eva Luna Poetry Collections.

1- Grieving

He left my soul
filled with pain.
Oh Lord,
he was so vain!
He killed the love
I felt for him,
and left my hands
empty again.

He ripped the last hope
from my empty heart
And here I am now,
on my knees.
crying under this rain.

Praying to the sky for love
for forgiveness
and to heal soon
my emotional scars.

Praying,
moaning,
and crying
again,
and again…

Crying over my disillusions,
praying to this dark sky
full of wonderful stars,
to heal soon
my emotional scars.


2- Sailing Trough the Wind

I'd like to sail
through the wide ocean.
And sail way deep
into the blue sea,
inside a ship
with magic flapping wings.

Sail away.
Far, far away
be gone with the wind
blowing all over
my tearful face.

And sail away,
deep into the ocean,
were this pain doesn’t exist.

Sail away,
without turning back;
Sailing far away,
from my hurtful past!

I need to sail through these storms
that are blowing inside of  me;
Sail away in a magical ship
with magic gold and black wings!

Sailing far away,
away from my nightmares,
and from all my fears,
far away from you, and my own self.

Sailing far away,
through the dark red seas.
Sailing through the wind!
Where this pain
that's devouring me
will no longer exist...

Sailing far away from you,
away from me...


3- Without you

I'm dying without you.
I cannot live without you.
I am dying for your love.
and it is your fault!

I cannot face
a life without you.

I ask the moon,
Where are you?
But in return
she smiles and turns her face to me.

I tell her that without you,
I simply can not live!
You are everything I have.
You were the only hope
I ever had.

Tell me, what you've done to me?
Tell me now, who can rescue me?

Tell me, How can I
take you out of my life,
if my heart is bleeding inside,
since our lives brought us apart?

Can you please come back home to me?
Can please, answer that?

I need you, like the air I breath!
I need you, so I can live!
Without you, I simply cannot live.
Come my life, back to me,
before I die!...


4- Simply Happy Thoughts

I thought that we were finally happy,
my Dear.
I thought what we had,
had been truth and real...

I built in my head
a magic world
just for the two of us,
filled with love and peace;
No lies, no anger, & no hate.

I dreamed on a world
filled with You,
and Me.
Just us!

I thought for once,
that you truly loved me!
And that I loved you too!
but was I so wrong?

I once felt loved.
Yet, those were simply
happy thoughts…
In reality, there was never an us!
Our love was forever gone.

I thought many things.
I though of you and I
were forever in love
I thought simply thoughts...

I don’t know
What I thought!

I thought that I loved you
and that you also loved me too.
But tell me My Love,
Was it ever true?
Or were those
simply happy thoughts?


5- Only in my dreams

Only in my dreams!
Only in my dreams
I could tell you what I feel.

Only in my dreams
you can see tears
running down my face
like peaceful streams.
Tears of pain;
Tears I can't refrain.

Only in my dreams
I can tell you my story...
I can open my heart to you,
and feeling no worries…

Only in my dreams
I could go back
to my old cottage,
our old little hut
and sit there and cry,
and howl,
and return back
to my daily life
with a lot more courage...

Only in my dreams!

Only in my dreams
My life is real…
Our love life, together, is real,
But only in our dreams!...


6- Eternal Silence

I heard it, suddenly,
the sound of the wind.
Invisible steps were walking towards me.
I saw an angel there
for a brief moment...

Then darkness!
Nothing else!
Just silence.

An eternal Raven like silence
born within me…

My broken
pounding heart
was the only noise
that I managed to hear.
Everything else was silence here...

But then I heard myself cry out loud.
It is a very spectral cry sound
coming out from very inside
my hollowed chest
breaking on its way out
the solid silence
that surrounds me.

My imprisoned soul
was trying to break free!

So with all the strengths
that I had left
I fought to untie myself,
from my invisible chains.

Once I got myself free
I ran away crying out loud
pouring my soul out…
But there was no longer
pain nor fears inside my chest…

My tears were now
silent tears.
But tears of joy!
Freedom & Happiness tears!

Suddenly the wind
lifted me in the air.
I could see small houses
everywhere,
while invisible steps
carried me away.

Joy and laughter
suddenly fills up
the whole space.
My heart is free!

Then nothing.
More silence.
an eternal silence,
born within me...

When I wake up
I’m all alone
inside this empty room,
wrapped in my own white sheets.
Then I hear the wind
and everything else
becomes silent.

Eternal silent!



Sad Winter

The cold winter blows
his wet breath over my naked face
and my frozen uncovered body.

My hands are soft
pale, pale and cold
as well my blue blood heart.

My mouth feels
dry, dry as the air...

I feel all alone,
and a little afraid.
I feel that I’m going to die
in this sad dark winter.
Dark and sad...

Everything around me
has turned pitch black.
For me there is no light!
There is no hope.
Not anymore!
There is no turning back…

I have no faith.
No luck.
I am already dead!
And as I lay here over my bed,
made of wet dirt
and burned dry grass
I sadly stare
at a shooting star…

Whishing to see,
before I die,
the glittering stars
of your loving eyes!

I miss you bad.
In this cold winter,
I’m going mad.
It’s getting dark;
The sad winter
becomes more sad!


Waiting & More Waiting

Waiting, and waiting.
For what?
I still don‘t know,
yet I’m still waiting…

Waiting for time
to pass by.

Hoping for
much better times
to arrive.

Waiting & more waiting.
Waiting to live,
waiting to die.
Waiting for love to find me...


Copyright©2009 Evelyn Rodriguez